I Just Hate It!!

It's still hard for me to believe that I am in college. I think there are only a select few who can understand my deep hatred for school. Feeling the way that I do, adds to my amazement that I have made it this far. I began to hate school in the tenth grade. I don't know what triggered it, but something just changed in me all of a sudden. Before this change, I was a huge nerd. I loved school. I always tried to be an over achiever. I never missed days in school, not because my mother forced me to go, but because I loved to go. Don't get confused, I still don't miss days. I've only missed one class this semester, and my record is clean from last semester. I still go to class and I do my work, heck, sometimes I even study. I only do it because I feel like I have to. I honestly have this feeling that I have to be in school and I have to do well. I just hate it so much. I know some may say, "Hate is a strong word and you shouldn't use it with some things" but I know that I hate school. If I hit the lottery, you can bet your socks that I'm out of here. Well, maybe not. I might still stay in school just because of that feeling that says that it's the right thing.