Stupid Feelings

Last week feels like a blur to me. I was so out of it. I don't know what happened to me to make me feel the way that I did. It was my birthday week and everything but I just felt weird. I feel like my week was very unhappy. I'm hoping that this week will get better for me some kind of way. I sort of have an idea of what it is that is making me so unhappy, but it is such a big part of my life and I don't want to blame it for my unhappiness. I think that letting it go, may actually cause me more unhappiness, but then again it may not. I don't know. There is such much connected to this thing, and as you can see, I am not telling you what it is on purpose. Now that I think about it, I don't even know how to let this thing go. I wouldn't even know how to begin. My explanation for letting it go has no solid reasoning except I'm not happy and I just have a feeling that it is the cause of it. I don't want to let something so important to me go just from a bad feeling that I have. I am going to continue to pray about it and see what happens.